hello guys, its been sometimes since i really update this cobweb-filled site. recently i've been pretty busy, busy lazying around. exams are so near and i don even have the motivation to study. i feel so lazy =( drop me a suprise, motivate me. it takes special people to motivate me and that keeps me going. oh well, the best and the most special someone left already. heaven is making fun of me. ahak! perhaps i don really know how to treasure my friends around me. my perceptions are so different from others. maybe im born aquarian, a february kid. anyway i don think that person will ever step into this site since part of me has changed. that person will not forgive(?) or accept what i am today. im rather disappointed in myself and you. you weren't there to control or speak to me. you left me to die, but i know what i've done to you and myself. i asked for it. i wonder if it's too late to apologise, you dont have to come back.. cos i know i don deserve it.
you will still be the best. its hard to find a replacement. but now, only the ghostly image remains. if its fate, may u see this. you're fragile and you know i know it, so take good care. the best arian who's born on the 9th. my life sunk when u and my dog left. i feel so "betrayed", all that trust that i've built up - gone. i've lost much confidence in humans, the lack of trust in humans made me superficial.
human learn things the hard way.
stayed at home these few days to "study" for my exams. nvr went out, nobodi asked or i asked but not free. the timing is so not right. i want to start driving. i want to get my licence. i want to be faster than anyone. if its possible, i want to be a professional driver. too bad singapore doesnt have such a profession. oh well.. boring singapore.
i wonder what im going to do after my exams? that'll mark the end of my poly life. im wondering if i should go to the CSCC DND. those faces i want to see will not be going. moreover, it's expensive. boo! can you convince me? anyway, im no VIP so why bother.
my phone is silent for the whole day. isnt somebody gonna talk to me? hahaha. oh well .. everybody's busy. (what a lousy excuse)
you can close your eyes to reality, but not to memories.
happy person (: not :(
ja na!
9:31 PM
homme
xiangming
currently nineteen
studying in singapore polytechnic
possesses dual personalities detests the world you won't know what's behind my plastic mask your misery - my joy
oh how loved
durians.
cars.
speed lover.
suzuki swift.
star gazing.
try all kinds of food except bugs.
random choices are exciting.
gross stuff especially food.
animals.
brothers, sisters and buddies.
messy environment. daydreaming.
family.
procrastinating.
extreme stunts.
mirage
class 3 licence.
start driving. reddish brown hair
get my diploma.
enter NUS. bolster
be a fighter pilot.
guy laroche wallet.
weird gadgets.
samurai sword.
a birthday kiss.
